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1. |
Mad With Lust
04:36
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yes, I want you; yes, I want you; can't you tell?
I can't hide it, or at least not very well
they say it's actions, not words, that tell the truth
& I keep acting moronic when I am with you
isn't this supposed to feel so good?
it doesn't feel the way I always thought it would
CHORUS:
am I mad with lust, or am I just going mad?
am I mad for wanting all the things I want so bad?
I am all torn up at the thought of us
but I never can tell you I am mad with lust
down below my waist, there is a trap
it demands attention, but I can't think about that
'cause if I start, I'm scared I'll never quit
but being good can also feel like shit
is there a chance you want me too?
'cause if there's not, I don't know what I'm gonna do
(repeat chorus)
they show it in the pornos, the version that I don't know well
they show it in the movies, where it never looks like hell
it shows up in the romance novels I read on the train
don't know how it can be so light & sweet when it is driving me insane
(repeat chorus)
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2. |
How'd I Never Notice?
02:31
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you've been my friend for quite a while
but suddenly, I love your smile
how'd I never notice it before?
the hugs you give hello, goodbye
feel different now – I don't know why
how'd I never notice it before?
I always knew you were kind
you make me laugh, I love your mind
but now, I think I'm feelin' something new
I always knew you were cute
but I thought the point was moot
now, I can't stop wond'rin' if you're feelin' something too
we're sitting close; you bump my thigh
I bite my lip now, every time
how'd I never notice it before?
you look at me, & when your eyes
are on me, I get butterflies
how'd I never notice it before?
thought we were destined to be friends
that that's how this would end
but now I'm thinkin' maybe I was wrong
sometimes I catch you staring too
like you don't know what to do
should you try your luck, or move along?
you don't have to respond to this
but if you ever want a kiss
that's exactly what my lips are for
I never saw it coming
how something came from nothing
how'd I never notice it before?
it's a different world now
I wanna be your girl now
how'd I never notice it before?
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3. |
I Want More
03:22
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you looked cute at school today
& I wished we could run away
& lie down in a field to talk out all our feelings
taking you anywhere would be appealing
but if you wanna go, go, go
there's something you should know, know, know:
CHORUS:
I want more, I want more, I want more, more, more of you
I am sure I adore you, & need so much more of you
& I'm missin' your kissin' & thinkin' sweet thoughts
I think you should listen, incase you forgot:
I want more, I want more, I want more, more, more of you
give me so much more of you
call me just like yesterday
I'm here to listen to anything you wanna say
& ticking past midnight, the clock is forgotten
all that I know is I like you a lot &
you're gonna have to hang up first
I'll never do it; I'm the worst
(repeat chorus)
I'm sorry if it freaks you out
the way I sit & stare
you're so much of what I think about
why act like I don't care?
like I don't care?
(repeat chorus)
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4. |
Don't You Dare
04:31
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I could tell you my favorite color
yeah, I think that would be fine
& if you disclose which major you chose
in college, well, I'll tell you mine
I'm okay when we're skimming the surface
I can tease you & touch you & flirt
but if we go deeper, I'm nervous
about all the ways I could get hurt, so...
CHORUS:
don't you dare know me too well
don't you dare act like you care
don't you dare say you want me, or think of me fondly
or say I don't have to be scared
don't you dare
do you have to be so cute & funny
when we're sharing a dinner for two?
& yes, I am blushing, but no, I'm not crushing
'cause then, I don't know what I'd do
I could tell you, "Hey, thanks, but it's over
& maybe we're better off friends"
but I know in my bones, if I left you alone
I might never surrender again
(repeat chorus)
what if you give me the old bait-&-switch?
what if you yell at me, call me a bitch?
what if you've got evil tricks up your sleeve?
worst of all, what if you leave?
(repeat chorus)
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5. |
New Love
03:11
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been a while since someone looked at me like in the storybooks
oh yeah, oh yeah
been a while since someone asked about my present & my past
oh yeah, oh yeah
don't wanna be lonely anymore
wond'rin' what my time is for
maybe I should walk right out the door, & find...
CHORUS:
a new love, a new love
that would be so sweet, if I could only meet
a new love, a new love
it's weighin' on my mind; oh when oh when will I find
a new love?
I wanna get to know ya, so much I wanna show ya
oh yeah, oh yeah
I wanna take you home, so you can make me moan
oh yeah, oh yeah
don't even know if you exist
if I should give up or persist
all I know is I just wanna kiss, kiss, kiss...
(repeat chorus)
new things always scare you, before you know the deal
& nothing can prepare you for how it's gonna feel
but if you want adventure (& I know you do)
there's nothing like the pleasure of loving somebody new
(repeat chorus)
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6. |
I've Got Time
04:02
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where are you? when are you?
I'm flying through time to find you
the '50s, the '60s
are you in the '70s? '80s?
I'm missing your presence
back here in the present
I still want a future with you
CHORUS:
I've got time, time to spare
buy some time til I'm right there
I've got time, & time will tell
if I wasted my time when I fell in love with you
will you be in the city,
drinkin' cocktails with Marilyn & Jimmy?
maybe London's where you're runnin'
to go see who that Shakespeare's becomin'
I'm searching through space
for a glimpse of your face
I still want a future with you
(repeat chorus)
call a time out – remember that time
when you let your mouth press against mine?
when the time comes, I'll hold you again
we'll go back where we're from, back to back then
(repeat chorus)
& though it's been forever
to me, you still feel new
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7. |
Honest With Myself
02:59
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if I were honest with myself
I'd know you're never gonna want me
by day, I act aloof; by night, I'm living proof
that you're always gonna haunt me
if I were honest with myself
I wouldn't have to feel so frantic
by day, I'd buckle down; by night, I'd hit the town
I'd be recklessly romantic
instead, I'm stuck at home
& wishing you would phone
& feeling all alone
like I'm wasting my youth
I almost called you twice
thought I'd take my own advice
'cause wouldn't it be nice
to tell the truth?
if I were honest with myself
I'd have to shed my old delusions
for now, I'll keep my distance, 'cause I don't need your assistance
to take another bruisin'
by day, I've learned my lesson; by night, you're my obsession
by day, I'm unaffected; by night, I feel rejected
by day, no one can tell that by night, I am in hell
'cause I am honest with myself
at least I'm honest with myself
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8. |
Mile High Club
02:30
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why do people fuck on planes?
could somebody please explain?
gotta say, I can't relate
why would you join the Mile High Club?
can two people have much fun
in a bathroom built for one
hurryin' to get it done?
why would you join the Mile High Club?
I have trouble coming at the best of times
even when I'm not committing airplane crimes
how can anybody even get aroused
30,000 feet above the ground?
why do people fuck on flights
under those fluorescent lights?
is it just to add some spice?
why would you join the Mile High Club?
why are people always boning
in the bathroom of a Boeing?
does the motor mute the moaning?
is that why you join the Mile High Club?
but for me, anxiety can kill the mood
& famously, when flying, people can be rude
positioning is limited; it's quite a squeeze
what, you sit on the toilet seat & me on my knees?
good for you if it's your kink
but I don't wanna spill my drink
or fuck you on a metal sink
I don't wanna join the Mile High Club
I really mean you no offense
good for you if you invent
diversions from the turbulence
I'm glad that you joined the Mile High Club
it's rad that you joined the Mile High Club
but I'll never join the Mile High Club
I'll wait til we've landed, & then fuck
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9. |
Same Moon
04:14
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every night I look up at the sky
& miss you, miss you, miss you
& every night, I stop & wonder why
I can't kiss you, kiss you, kiss you
the distance between us feels so wide
so why not step outside, &...
CHORUS:
keep staring at the same moon
til we're standing in the same room
when you're looking, I will look too
so we're looking at the same moon
the same moon
every night, I count the days until
you'll be here, be here, be here
& every night, I'm sadder that it's still
just me here, me here, me here
when time moves horribly slow
go stand at your window, &...
(repeat chorus)
can we wait around for the next phase?
is this the right time, but the very wrong place?
let's...
(repeat chorus)
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10. |
Easy
04:07
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when we were young
we could have fun
playing the field
shooting our shot
before we forgot
how to be real
imagine just being unguarded
when your heart hadn't yet become hardened
it was just like Adam & Eve's little garden
CHORUS:
it was easy to be open, before you slammed the door
easy to let love in, but that was before
when you knew who you wanted, & wanted them deeply
I wanna go back to when it was easy
it was so easy
now, when I dare
to "get back out there"
it scares me so much
what if they don't
like me, although
they're loving my touch?
I am much more than a body
& I think that I almost forgot me
why'd I even care who didn't want me?
(repeat chorus)
who's gonna take better care of me?
who's gonna pay for my therapy?
don't worry; I know who, actually
it's gonna be me
it's gotta be me
(repeat chorus)
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11. |
Be Good
02:35
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hey, old friend, I've got an issue:
kinda think I wanna kiss you
but we shouldn't... we should be good
I know you're taken; so am I
this lust is hardly justified
& we shouldn't... we should be good
I won't choose a fling over everything
that, I will not do
but I can't help it; I just like
the way I am when I'm with you
how can someone stay contented
if they've never experimented?
but we shouldn't... we should be good
why must I be dull & moral?
how far will we go before I'll
say, "we shouldn't... we should be good"
my love is safe, a great home base
but I need something more
I've got a feeling I could find it
in your bed or on your floor
here's a bit of a confession:
there are times I start to question
if we shouldn't... if we should be good
someday soon, I don't know how
we'll be together – but for now
we shouldn't... we should be good
we shouldn't... we should be good
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12. |
Cameras
03:31
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the newspapers don't print what they know
they print what will sell
it never feels fair, the way they all stare
they know me too well
the magazines wish I'd give 'em a tip
throw 'em a bone
but I'll stay inside, lay low & just hide
I'm safer alone
CHORUS:
I'm tired of running from the cameras
tired of shoving back the cameras
tired of trudging past the cameras
I'm tired of suffering for the cameras
tired of wondering who that man was
I'm not living for the cameras
why should I do a new interview?
the last one destroyed me
when they write me up, they make me sound dumb
it really annoys me
they question my taste, & call it a waste
that I'm on my own
like they played no part in carving the scars
that keep me alone
(repeat chorus)
macro, micro, telephoto cellphone
flashing, crashing, can I get a "hell no"?
fighting, writing made-up stories
don't you find it gets so boring?
(repeat chorus)
I'm not living for the cameras
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13. |
Might Be
02:09
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spy on me, lie to me
can't you see? that's what I am here for
torture me, horribly
best believe I can even take way more
CHORUS:
I'll be good & then you'll like me
stay quiet, so politely
am I sad? I think I might be
on the run ain't much fun
when you're the one who'll have to do the running
should I wait? should I stay?
is a savior really never coming?
(repeat chorus)
my friends are all insisting that I pack up & go
but I know what they're missing; I know what they don't know
still, wouldn't it be nice
if I could take their advice?
(repeat chorus)
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14. |
Kill For You
03:16
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you never read my letters
don't ask me how I know
still think that you sound better
through a wall than on the radio
I wanna make you need me
I wanna make it hurt
I wanna make you see me
this is the way I flirt
CHORUS:
I'd never get to be with you
like I knew that I wanted to
I'd never get the best of you
so I knew what I had to do:
baby, I would kill for you
baby, I would kill for you
I tuned in late to hear you
I had a crazy night
made sure I had a clear view
of when your face went white
you had to read the details
the body split in two
a blonde & blue-eyed female
she looked a lot like you
(repeat chorus)
will you bail me out? will you back me up?
will you tell me now if you've had enough?
will your life never be the same
'cause of what I've done in your name?
(repeat chorus)
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15. |
Get Married
03:16
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go ahead & throw that white bouquet
I'll just stand back here & watch; I don't wanna play
I'll haunt the open bar, do my own thing
other girls can chase that golden ring
CHORUS:
oh, I wanna get married – but not today
I'll keep my freedom, do things my own way
oh, I wanna get married – but not too soon
dance to my rhythm, sing my own tune
oh, when you said "let's take the next step"
my eyes got wide; I could not decide if I felt ready yet
there's still so much I wanna do
stuff that might be tough to do with you
(repeat chorus)
yes, you said you'd love me til the ends of the earth
am I really worth it? & do I deserve it?
yes, you said you'd wait for me, you'd show me til I finally see
that loving you can feel like being free
(repeat chorus)
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16. |
Magic
02:43
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you pulled a white rabbit right out of your hat
& I thought, "well, dammit, how did you do that?"
baby, you're magic
baby, you're magic to me
you don't wear jeans, 'cause you never dress down
you're wearing a top hat & tux on the town
baby, you're magic
baby, you're magic to me
look so deep into my eyes
til I am hopelessly hypnotized
I'll do anything you say
even cluck like a chicken & lay an egg, oh
I wanna know, if we went on a date
would you use your wand on me, or make your escape?
baby, you're magic
baby, you're magic to me
you make me gasp, you make me laugh
you saw me slowly right in half
baby, you're magic
baby, you're magic to me
tell me all your secrets, ruin every trick
I wanna know the man inside & know what makes you tick
baby, you're magic
baby, you're magic to me
baby, you're magic
baby, you're magic to me
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17. |
Like a Queen
02:28
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why were you late? late for our date?
& why were you rude? oh, what a strange attitude
I'm not impressed with what I've seen
you oughta treat me like a queen
why are you bored? I feel ignored
when you're on your phone, I might as well be alone
there's other places that I could have been
why don't you treat me like a queen?
I don't mean to complain, I don't mean to kvetch
I don't mean to sound vain, but baby, I am a catch
if you're not gonna savor my company
baby, I don't think that you're the one for me
I've got a list of people I've kissed
& I could add you, if I wanted to
but to be honest, I'm not too keen
'cause you don't treat me like a queen
I know it sounds odd, like I'm so self-absorbed
like I think I'm a god who you should tremble before
but since you're disrespectin' me without remorse
baby, I think maybe this has run its course
I know what I'm worth, & what I deserve
& I require the bar to be higher
you know exactly what I mean
why don't you treat me like a queen?
you oughta treat me like a queen!
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18. |
Somebody Loved Me
02:21
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last night I dreamt that somebody loved me
it was a strange & silly little dream
someone who would bring me flowers, kiss me well 'cause they know how, or
make me laugh & laugh until I scream
last night I dreamt that somebody loved me
someone with a smile that calms me down
they'd hold me on hard days, say "it'll be okay"
& if not, at least I'll still have them around
a love so fine would be the envy of everyone we met
that love was mine, until the ending of a dream I can't forget
last night I dreamt that somebody loved me
& wished, while dreaming, that it would come true
the wistful wishing hurt, but the wishing must have worked
'cause when I woke up, I was next to you
when I woke up, I was next to you
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19. |
Annoying
02:49
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thought I knew who I was
but maybe that's all meaningless
I'd sell my soul for the buzz
of a cute new person I can kiss
met you on a Sunday, went a little crazy
now it's only Monday, I'm hating all my cravings
feeling like an addict – wouldn't it be bad if
I'm already sad without you?
CHORUS:
it's like I've been poisoned
when I'm with boys &
it's really annoying, annoying
I'm losing my voice &
I'm losing my joy &
it's really annoying, annoying
you showed up 3 hours late
I bit my tongue, like it was fine
what could I even say?
you'd just tell me I endlessly whine
I don't need defending, but if you don't agree, I'll
just go on pretending that I'm not in free-fall
feeling so pathetic; no one really gets it
ever since I first met you
(repeat chorus)
how do I take the wheel? how do I be more real?
how do I draw a line? how do I grow a spine?
how do I keep myself safer from someone else?
how do I let this go? how do I say no?
(repeat chorus)
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20. |
I'm Not Mad
01:15
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I'm not mad you're always up before me in the A.M.
& I'm not mad you texted back in seconds again
I'm not mad when it's date night & you show up half an hour early
& I'm not mad every late night when you come prematurely
all those other girls before just didn't know what it meant
they all said they wanted more, but I know it's a compliment
so I'm not mad you're quicker than the typical duration
& I'm not mad you never can delay gratification
I'm not mad my magic touch means you can never last
in fact, I like it twice as much when nice guys finish fast
when nice guys finish fast
when nice guys finish fast
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21. |
Wait For Spring
02:40
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another winter in the dark
what are you gonna do all season?
light a candle, feel a spark
just ignore your fingers freezin'
you've done it before
you can do it more
CHORUS:
it's time to wait for spring
time to pray for spring
missing everything it brings
it's time to wait for spring
& if you're lonely & all alone
there's not a lot to do about it
'cause when it's snowy, you'll just stay home
if love's out there, you'll do without it
you've done it before
you can do it more
(repeat chorus)
& just when you can't take it anymore
just when you are wondering what it's all been for
the clouds'll part, as angels sing
the sun'll shine on everything
& you'll pick yourself up slowly from the floor
for now, we wait for spring
& we pray for spring
we're missing everything it brings
it's time to wait for – time to wait
time to wait for spring
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22. |
Drunk Dial
02:29
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Friday night, city lights
I'll make a call, if that's alright
who's it to? of course it's you!
I've heard that you're with someone new
words are slurring, vision's blurring
phone is ringing, I can't breathe
all that whiskey's gettin' risky
you thought you'd gotten rid of me?!
CHORUS:
it's a drunk dial
sorry for the drunk dial
it really isn't my style
it's been a while
sorry for the drunk dial
lost my keys, lost my way
lost in words I cannot say
liquid courage turns to fear
I need you now, I need you here
words are slurring, vision's blurring
getting sweaty – where's my phone?
I'll regret this when you get this
message & I'm still alone
(repeat chorus)
I swear I'm usually much classier
I hope one day we'll both be happier
but tonight...
(repeat chorus)
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23. |
TBD
02:09
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(that's TBD!)
(that's TBD!)
I don't know if you'll love me right
I don't know if you're gonna stay the night
I don't know if your flags are red
I don't know what you like in bed
we're writing history
but as for you & me
that's TBD (that's TBD!)
that's TBD (that's TBD!)
you've never even seen me cry
or asked me how I think I'm gonna die
you've never even met my mom
or seen me with no makeup on
don't know our destiny
but as for you & me
that's TBD (that's TBD!)
that's TBD (that's TBD!)
this seems to be working fine
I've got no complaints
but don't wanna get ahead of myself
I've made that mistake!
we're writing history
it's still a mystery
but as for you & me
that's TBD (that's TBD!)
that's TBD (that's TBD!)
that's TBD
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24. |
Glimmer
04:00
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you're driving home for the holidays, you're
glad you're alone, so they can't see your face
you're dreading when you get there & they ask about your hair
or why you wear those clothes you like to wear
you'll shrug your shoulders & avoid their eyes
& mumble something that you know's a lie
I'm guessing you're regressing back to who you used to be
'cause that's the only you they see, but...
CHORUS:
don't let them dim your glimmer
you've got so much light within ya
don't let them take it all away
it's been years since you figured out
that you were queer, & they should hear about it
the silence felt so violent as you waited & waited
to find out whether they could ever tolerate it
but they just shut down & didn't say a thing
now they pretend it isn't happening
it's painful, but you're grateful that you have them at all
although they make you feel so small
(repeat chorus)
do what it takes to keep yourself safe
even if that means lying
but don't make mistakes that your elders have made
living shouldn't feel like you are dying, so...
(repeat chorus)
'cause it's okay to make the yuletide gay
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25. |
Couldn't Be Me
02:58
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so it's December 31st – why should I care?
I'm all alone, I'm staying home, not going out there
why brave the snow & pay to go to a different place
when my peace is found, not in a crowd, but in my own space
& who would I be
if I spent this eve
at a bar or a party?
that couldn't be me
that couldn't be me
don't get me wrong – I'll do my face & wear a dress
I say just keep the bits you like, & fuck the rest
I'll light a candle, pop a cork, & drink champagne
good meals, no heels, no lines, no people to complain
& who would I be
if I spent this eve
at a bar or a party?
that couldn't be...
who can I kiss
if they don't exist?
so alone, I'm happiest
that couldn't be me
'cause I hate people more than I hate loneliness
& between those different evils, I'll take the one that I know best
'cause it's the easiest
& who would I be
if I wasn't me?
are there new things I would see?
that couldn't be...
who's underneath
when I peel back my grief
& change my old beliefs?
that couldn't be me
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Kate Sloan Toronto
Thirtysomething from Toronto. Sex journalist by day, ukulele songstress by night. Writes songs about love, sex, fictional characters, and occasionally jellyfish.
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